Sunday, March 15, 2009


I wish it was my leg.
A pompous doctor would wrap my broken leg in plaster, coat it in a layer of hope and sympathy.

But you can't wrap an organ in gauze or band-aids, not that I know of anyway.
I'm sure some fuck head will comment on this bad boy and announce publically that they had their liver wrapped in a sheath of plastic or something absurd.

I hate that you broke my heart.
I hate that you never read this.
I hate that I wont be sitting amongst balloons in your spongebob clad room for your eighteenth birthday.
I hate that I wasn't beautiful enough or funny enough for you.

But I love that you brought me back to life Polly.
You sat with me in the rain and told me, mid cigarette, that I was going to be ok.
And I will be.


  1. "Are you swimming upstream in oceans of blue? Do you feel like you're sinking? Are you sick of the rain after all you've been through? Well I know what you're thinking. When you can't take it, you can make it.Sometime soon I know you'll see..

    'cause when you're in your darkest hour, and all of the light just fades away.. When you're like a single flower whose colours have turned to shades of gray..
    well, HANG ON. AND BE STRONG." :]

    ok so those lyrics are totally from a delta goodrem song, so that's a bit embarassing, but the lyrics are so, so true and give me hope. hopefully they do to you too.

    hang in there jayo, things will improve because they always, always do. things may be hard right now but i promise you, just keep holding on, and you'll soon have strength to smile again.

    keep your chin up. to see a rainbow you first must endure the storm. love from that original anon xxxx

  2. this makes me tear everytime i read it.
    i love you, you're my angel....
    you are the most beautiful girl in the world.
    xx polly