Monday, May 31, 2010


Tallulah or
Abbey or



Maybe I know, somewhere deep in my soul,
That love never lasts.
And we've got to find other ways to make it alone,
Or keep a straight face.
And i've always lived like this,
keeping a comfortable distance,
and up until now,
I had sworn to myself, that i'm content with lonliness,
Because none of it was ever worth the risk.
You are the only exception.
I've got a tight grip on reality,
But I can't let go of what's in front of me here.

My Prince Charming.

I used to watch Alladin every single morning.

Friday, May 28, 2010


Home made tattoos really do rule.

Thursday, May 27, 2010


I love your scar.
It runs for maybe ten centimetres and then it juts off in another direction.
I wonder about it all the time.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Monday, May 24, 2010

Pirelli Calendar '10

Hooooollyyyyyyy shit, thank you Terry Richardson!!

If you were hosting a dinner party and you could invite any individual throughout history, dead or alive. Which five would you invite and why?

Lets assume for the sake of the answer that each of these people have accepted my invitations to dinner.
Andy Kaufman (January 17, 1949 – May 16, 1984) because I think he is an extraordinary man and I would love to hear the details of his career first hand.
Edith 'Little Edie' Bouvier Beale (November 7, 1917 – January 9, 2002) because there would be nothing like seeing her fashion in the flesh.
Heath Ledger (4 April 1979 – 22 January 2008) because I miss his performing and I would love to pick his brain; why his death happened and what he wanted to do with his promising future.
Richard Leonard 'The Iceman' Kuklinski (April 11, 1935 – March 5, 2006) because all the youtube videos I watch about him can never answer all the questions I have about his "career".
And finally; Frank Sinatra (December 12, 1915 – May 14, 1998) because he could sing after dinner and I could take a totally badass photo of the two of us and pretend like I am in the rat pack.

Ask me anything, within reason.

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Saturday, May 22, 2010

Greek Mythology

"According to Greek mythology, humans were originally created with four arms, four legs and a head with two faces.
Fearing their power, Zeus split them into two separate parts, condemning them to spend their lives in search of their other halves."
I hope this is true. I hope my half finds me.

Drown down

I would love to sink into my bed, or a boiling bath, and just dissolve.
Fall away from the earth. And the people.
I think they call it drowning.

Thursday, May 20, 2010

Russell and Monroe

I want to channel old school hollywood glamour.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

I miss you.

It was that feeling of waking up next to someone. Someone who you have just realised you're crazy in love with.
My hair was warm.
I rolled over, expecting to see you laying in your nook next to me, one hand tangled in my tresses.
Instead - there was only sun.
Sun slicing through the curtains and falling gently on my long blonde mane.
I tucked my hair under my pillow.
I didn't want to remember that you would never lay there again.

What a hair do!

Saturday, May 15, 2010

I'll see it all somewhere. Not here though. Not in this life.

I could really use a wish right now

I listen to that song one hundred times.
And I look at that photo one hundred times.
Every time I hate you more.
I'm not doing it for me now.
I'm going to do it because I hate you.

Luke P

So beautiful.

Friday, May 14, 2010

Tuesday, May 11, 2010


I'm so tired
Sleepwalk through this joint
And I can't stop wondering
What is the point

When I felt empty
You would fill me up
Now I'm a half empty
Plasticine cup

I want more tattoos
I'd like different hair
But none of these things
Mean that you will be there

My mind; it is melting
And my skin is in shreds
I cannot fix this
Not even with meds

Monday, May 10, 2010

I haven't written in so long.
I don't feel like there is anything left in me. I have nothing left to write, nothing left to say.

It was scary watching you slip through my fingers.
It's scarier watching my creativity go too...

The perfect quotes.

"The way to get over you isn't by hooking up with some random guy or pretending like we didn't happen.
You and I loved each other. And then you broke my heart. I've been doing everything possible not to face that fact.
I'm going to kiss somebody some day. And when I do, it will be for me.
Good-bye Chuck."

"It's no use to deny the past. Chuck is a part of me, he will always be. It just hurts so much."

Thursday, May 6, 2010

Monday, May 3, 2010

Ohh Kaya

I think I need to turn this into a Kaya Scodelario blog. I am in love.

Sunday, May 2, 2010