What I will never understand.

I will never understand why some people feel compelled to suck the happiness from within you?
What honestly possesses somebody to be frivolous with insults, using verbal abuse to undermine you, everything you live and stand for?

I will never ever understand what causes some humans to just be cruel.

I never got the whole 'oh, they're probably just insecure' thing.
Sure that's fine with me, be as insecure as you fucking want to be, but why then, on top of your own shit, bring other people down with you?

Then there is that whole 'oh they probably just had a bad day and they're taking it out on you'.
Well when did that become acceptable.
I will never, ever be fine with taking shit unnecessarily from somebody just because they're feeling particularly down.
These self centred low lifes need to be taught to take responsibility.
Too many times have I allowed myself to be blamed for other people's misfortunes.

It doesn't sit right with me.
Not at all.
But the most unfortunate thing about it is that it's so common that every single day we accept it.
It's trivial.

Well, it shouldn't be.

Forever.

It feels like forever since I last posted.

I haven't been able to get on the ol' blog much due to looming exams.

I had a few comments from anon patrons asking me not to perform the dye job.

TOO LATE!

Don't worry though bloggers, it was a wash out one. I'd heard that they don't completely wash out which is true, mine didn't. However my hair is still blonde, just a bit darker.

I do however miss my totally blonde hair. Maybe in the Summer time it will come back a little.

The second photo was from the day I did it, so my hair is a lot lighter now. But I did really like the original colour.

This is a very petty blog on my behalf.
I don't have anything uplifting or soulful to write about at the moment. Exams are definately abusing my wit.

Jayo x.

I'm dye-ing!

I have decided to dye my hair chestnut brown.

The people who read my blog probably know that I am a dye job virgin and have had sandy blonde hair for my whole life so it's going to be a bit of a change.

I was going to say, 'it's going to be such a big change!' and then I realised how pathetic that is. I really hate it when people talk about trivial things and indicate it's going to CHANGE their life.

A big change is when you move schools to somewhere in the burbs after being cooped up with pretentious private school girls for four years.

A big change is going through your parents' bitter divorce.

A big change is losing a loved one to the grim reaper or a drug addiction.

A big change is catching up with a friend you haven't seen in a few months, only to discover they have developed an eating disorder.

Not indicating in any way, shape or form that I've experienced all or any of those things, I just think the world is a bit bigger than hair colour or buying a new sweater.

I'm sick of hearing about how the fifteen year old girl next to me on the train had her world flipped upside down when she found out Sportsgirl had gotten a new vintage section!!! SUCH a big change!

In saying that, I felt like perhaps getting some feedback on the dye idea.

Also, I was just watching Romeo and Juliet and my god bloggers!!

Leonardo was a huge spunk in his hay day. Not that I didn't know that, I just copped a huge refresher though.

Another spot of news is that I'm going to the races on Saturday the 8th with my boyfriend and if the dye job I carry out looks shit, I could look a mess.

I got a rad little 80's party dress from the Chapel Street Bizarre that is silver and black.

I'll make sure to post photos when I get some taken with the hair and/or the dress.

Have a superb rest-of-long-weekend all.

xo Jayo

Immortal Beloved.

Ludwig Van Beethoven to his 'Immortal Beloved'
Letter 1

Good morning, on July 7

My thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved
I can live only wholly with you or not at all -
Be calm my life, my all. Only by calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together.
Oh continue to love me, never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.
Ever thine
Ever mine
Ever ours.


I just watched the Sex And The City movie for the second time (extended edition, pure bliss) and in one of the first scenes, Carrie reads out this poem to Big (aka John James Preston).
I think it's beautiful and utterly timeless.
Call me a sap but the line, the simple line, 'never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved' is magical.
Boy doesn't that just bring it home?

Don't ever question the love in my heart for you. Ever.

Love Jayo.

Silver lining.

I got to thinking.

"It's sad when people you know, become people you knew.
When you can walk right past someone like they were never a big part of your life.
How you used to be able to talk for hours and now you can barely even look at them."

Sure. That's shit, right, I get that.

It sucks when someone you used to love suddenly becomes some distant memory.

But you know what...

Friendships don't just go kaput for no reason.

If two close buds are going to terminate their common bonds then there must be a greater good.

Losing a 'partner in crime' obviously causes hurt. I've been hit by loss from left, right and centre. But I do believe that everything happens for a reason. If someone is going to walk out of your life then so be it.

Life has to move on.

People come and go from our lives and make varying impacts. Some will be negative and some positive. Some small and some large.

But even if that friendship doesn't last, the footprint they left of your soul will.

Jayo xo

Fat men.

You know what really fires me up. I was thinking about it today.

The crazy notion that all women should look like the chicks from Hugh Hefner's playboy mansion.

I mean, short of stuffing my tits full of silicon and spending hours at my exclusive home gym (that just between you and me, I don't own), without dedicating every minute of my life to dieting and exercise, there is no way I could maintain a flat stomach and colossal boobs. IT IS HORRIFICALLY UNREALISTIC.

However. The gross men who are making these generalisations are usually fat and have bigger breasts than the average female (yes mmmm man boobs get me going).

I hate that these disgusting men expect us to look fabulous every second of the day but that rule somehow surpasses them and they're allowed to be obese and obnoxious.

Double standard anyone?

I for one find it really, really irritating.

Get fucked.

Love from Jayo.
Somebody who sure doesn't look like any of the aforementioned girls.

I took to LOOKBOOK.

When your wardrobe is letting you down I suggest you take a look at http://lookbook.nu/ because it is just busting with fashion incentives from people all over the world.

A fellow blogging pal got me onto the website and now I can't stop. I'm a lookbook fiend.

I thought I would share a few of my favourite looks with you in case you can't make it to the site.

I love this bitty's blazer and high wasted shorts combo. Shame she lives in Stockholm. I wouldn't mind befriending her and her obviously delicious wardrobe.

Well this photo alone is dishy. Then there are her long long grey socks, her Chanel bag and the cute little dress. Lana here lives in Seattle which is fashionably unfair.

Now this Montréal chum is wearing only the most perfect hat. Her billowed dress and lacey tights make this outfit a match made in heaven.

Her eyes are sheltered from the Californian sun by a cute pair of white framed Ray Ban's and the dishevelled car she's laying on looks so chic.

Her all black outfit screams class and her little hat is much like the one I just got from an Opp Shop for six dollars.

And with that, I sign off.

There are a tonne of other great photos on the site that I suggest you bloggers check out and there are heaps of outfit ideas. Exciting.

Hope the weekend treated everyone spectacularly.
With love, Jayo.

And also.

A beautiful story to share with you all.

I am at my boyfriend's house sitting at his desk typing away on his acer desktop comp.
However, my boyfriend is not at home. He is over at his best friend's house until late this evening.
Strange, I know, but his family are pretty much mine so they love it when I hover around the place.

While I am sitting here, reading about Heidi Montag and her goose of a boyfriend, in stumbles my boyfriend's mum with a big hot cup of hot chocolate and two biscuits.

I nearly burst into tears. What a gesture!

The cocoa is absolutely heart warming. I have never felt so loved.

Jayo xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

New direction.

I was just in the middle of singing 'Tattoo' by Jordin Sparks for some reason unbeknown to me and realised that the line 'don't look back got a new direction' sounds a lot like 'don't look back i got a nude erection'.
I certainly laughed out loud a little.

On the note of music, I feel compelled to share with everyone that recently I forked out a lazy $200 dollars for a ticket to see Rihanna and Chris Brown perform.
And while we're on the subject of Rihanna, here is a bit of a tale for you blog followers and/or enthusiasts.

This evening while I was jogging on my boyfriend's treadmill a song came on that I assumed was the regular ol' version of Umbrella by Rihanna. A catchy pop song that did pretty well in its time. Probably goes off every Friday night down on Brunswick Street at the local over 35's night.

Anyway, it was actually the VNDLSM remix and by the intro I was already in love with it.
It inspired me to jog that little bit faster, and anything that motivates me to exercise must be top notch.
A totally perfect workout song and when it hits the drop, PERFECTION (I word that I'm noticing slowly but surely that I overuse).

I have really made things easy for you jokers by adding the video/song combination into this post so do me a favour, listen to it and then comment me with your thoughts on the ditty.



Jayo!

Xavier mucks up, then fucks up.

I am in the middle of a media honeymoon!
On the 20th of October, in the heat of muck-up week, the Xavier students went a little over board.

Now, I'm no catholicized 'Virgin Mary' princess. I don’t expect the absolute last week of school for anyone to be prim and proper. There is the promise of piss bombs, eggs and drunk and disorderly behaviour.
I do not however agree with the way the Xavier students handled their most recent farewell to high school.

A statement, that might I add was short and sweet, from the school read "...a large number of year 12 students exhibited unacceptable behaviour".

Spot on.

When did it become super rad to terrorize (the words of The Age) a main road while you're absolutely blind drunk? Keep that to Saturday nights thanks lads.

And pissing on fences in broad daylight is never great. Defy the words of tacky tee-shirts around Melbourne and please don't rock out with your cock out.

One student even rang up The Age and eloquently delivered this very touching quote - "If we were blind drunk and barely able to stand, how the fuck did we get into Kew".
Um, are you kidding. I see drunk metro's come out of 'Room' every weekend and they can still schlep themselves into McDonalds. It's an expression pal. I don't think anyone expected you to actually be deprived of all sight.

Anyway. This should prove to everyone that a private school education at one of the most prestigous boy schools in Melbourne certainly doesn't make you any less primative than someone from a public school. In fact, Xavier is the only school who has had to take such drastic action against their year 12 students so far this year.

Hilarious!

To read an article about the festivities head HERE yeeah.



Jayo.

Desperately seeking Ani.

I love love love! Ani Difranco.

Her song 'Untouchable Face' is devilish.

"think i'm going for a walk now

i feel a little unsteady

i don't want nobody to follow me

except maybe you.

i could make you happy you know

if you weren't already

i could do a lot of things

and i do."

Oh honestly people, go and download it.

Jayo.

T Birds. More like T Bags.

Ok yes that was lame.
However I am in the middle of watching 'Grease' and it is all so naff.

It had slipped my mind that in the fifties, smoking made you a 'rebel without a cause' and an ankle length skirt was riskayyy.
Being a cheerleader didn't make you a whore and the T-bird/Pink Lady characters with their engraved blazers and their run down cars rooled the school!

I think the best part of the movie is when Sandy (the naive Aussie) dumps Danny and picks up a new jock boyfriend. When the teeny boppers are all down at the local diner Sandy and Danny keep exchanging longing looks. He is subsequently with his mates playing 'too cool for school' (an act which is so totally see through, duhh) and she is with her simple sporty bf, lamenting over the spillage of some vanilla shake on her peach cardi.

Get these teens into some super slim acid washed cheap monday's and some baggy white tee's stat!
I need to turn 'Grease' off the TV. The only rockin' thing about this movie is seeing Johnnie is his hay day, and boppin' along to the tunes.

Love Jayo x

If the price is right.

No, this blog isn't going to be about the terrible game show 'The price is right'. It is going to be about money and fashion, and the ties the two have formed over the years.

I was on the tram today when a perfectly proportioned goddess dressed in a calf-length charcoal pencil skirt and a ruffled crème shirt sat opposite me. Her manicured toe nails were partially concealed by the patent leather sky-high platforms that she was wearing. Her sandy blonde locks were slightly curled and sat just above her shoulders. As I pretended not to look at her longingly, she pulled a pair of diamond encrusted ipod headphones out of her huge vintage glomesh bag that was also crème and plugged them with ease into her video ipod (and yes, I'm completely aware that by this stage I sound like a creep).

As I looked down at my five dollar navy blue blazer, my second hand red shirt, mum's old flats and my dirty white shorts I wondered, does money really help to sustain a killer wardrobe?
And yes it does. BUT, that isn't to say that broke as kids like me can't have superb style.
Although every item of clothing in the above mentioned woman's wardrobe probably cost more than my tuition, I would rather a Brunswick opportunity shop to a ritzy boutique full of expensive generic clothes any day!

It is now, that I sign off.
The footnote of this post is that money is great. The more money I have then the more money I can blow on people's old clothes so it's a win win for all parties involved.

Jayo x

Let me be Beha.

This doe-eyed lass embodies all things beauty related.

Her waif like physique. The precious right cheek specific dimple. Milky flawless skin and a spunky as scripture tat that reads 'this too shall pass'.

It doesn't get much better than miss Beha.

I do however, like her better with the side fringe she's sporting up top. Any takers?

Jayo

Romeo and Juliet.

I am the first of anyone to admit that young love has a firm grip on me.
My boyfriend and I hold hands in the library, peck in the canteen and dance in my living-room to Chris Brown.
Something that really irritates me is when people get really pissy about public displays of affection.
Now, I'm not some alpha freak who loves to watch pimple covered teens mack at the table next to me.
People who stick their tongues down their partners throats really makes my blood boil.
And explain to me why forty year old couples think it's perfection to grope one another while they're standing next to me at the local pedestrian crossing.

Anyway, people at school are always getting all up in my grill about kissing my boyfriend in front of them.
It isn't even french-naff-as-tongue kissing. We just delight in the occasional peck and/or cuddle.

And don't tell me to get a room. What makes you think that I revel in showing you and your gal pals just how much I love my boyfriend. Don't you think that I'd be in a private room if I could be? But no, I am stuck at school learning about linguistics and the history of Kung Fu cinema.

So now, lets see if I can piss everybody off just that little bit more.

I love him a lot.

Jayo xo.